When I think about the Lord

When I think about the Lord
It makes me want to sing
He is my light and my strength
Lifting the weight so I can breathe
I am humbled by his power
His mercy his love
He frees me of myself
From below to above
I live Him
Speak Him
Seek Him all my days
I lift Him
I give Him praise
I cry, I feel almost like I could die
And still I praise him
I still have faith
Although my heart is breaking
I’m trapped with no escape
Yet I know it is He who brings me heartache
Brings me pleasure, brings me pain
To burn me down to ashes
So that I may rise again
So that I may fly about the world
And sing of all he’s done

Her

Her smile
How my heart clings to every moment
that her lips part to express her happiness
Her happiness
How it means the world to me
To be near her
Is every breathe that I take
I watch her
As she sleeps
My angel
How those lungs pump life into that heavenly body
Every part of me is every part of her
The feeling of being without her has long since left my mind
I think
And contemplate
And still …
To not be able to be near her
To not hear her voice
To not see her smile…
Nothing could be more like hell
One day I woke up and …
I could see her in everything
In the sun
And the trees
And the everything

Oh

Oh
So you think you know me
Did you  know that I want to take a black man in my hands and let him lead me
But can I find one
And trust the fact that he needs me
Or will I make him leave me
With all my nagging and crying
About how I know he’s lying
Push him toward other women
By constant criticizing my beauty
Truly
I want to let a black man love me
But I have issues with trust
Issues with lust
Issues with letting you and I become us
I cant take the pain of  Mr. playa playa playing games
Of Mr. playa playa and all his dames
Of a boy searching for a poor man’s fame
I would call it shame
But instead I call it sad
A poor girl wearing hurt on her sleeve
Afraid to let him in because he can’t tear down theses wall
To see through theses flaws
I am hurting
I twist my arm when you look at me
Cause I know that we could never be
I know that you wont understand that I know that I don’t need a man
You won’t understand that somewhere inside me
Your like every other man
Somewhere inside me I trust you
Somewhere inside me I lust for you
Somewhere inside me I want you
But I can’t honestly say where
Sometimes its here
And at times its there
But those feelings I keep in the dark
For fear that the undeserving might find
The gift that is meant for only one
Never would you have thought that
Little old me would think
Would say
Would feel
Such things
But…

Get like me

Get like me
Get on my level
Get deep
Get focus get fresh
Get  strong
Endure
Then come see me
Hold it down
Keep it tight
Pull my grades
And look this right
Then come see me
Recognize your potential
Then accomplish some goals
Get like me
Face your problems
Then find your own remedy
Get like me

The Artists Gift

Give me your music
That sweet mellow sound that flows through you
I want your long chords
And  your heavy base line
Seduce me with your complicated melody
Li-Li-Li-Li
Let me lick your lips
And stroke you skin
Until you
PL-PL-PL-PL
Play me love notes
On your sax
Please
Let me hear your music
Please
Let me listen closely
Closely I feel you closely
Near me
Manipulating love music
I close my eyes so I can see you more clearly
Closely, your close to me
I touch you, you feel me
Feel lust vibrating from your instrument
I touch you, feel me, feeling you
Wanting you, needing you
Drawing me in with your sound
With your sax
Um-Um-Um
You play so sweet I can taste you
So sweet I’m so hot
Got me coming out my clothes
Wanting you to see me
Like I see you
In the light of the music
Through the fog of the sound
I want your gift
My Love
I want your beauty
The music stops
Fiercely I feel you
All over me
Like the rush of your melody
I feel you
Needing, wanting , craving
This feeling
Needing to conquer
Wanting to take
Craving to experience
This gift