what i want

I don’t just want to be your sometimes girl

I don't just want to be one of your schemes

I’m not asking to be your wife

I don’t want to be the girl of your dream

Although I will be there when you need me

And answer the phone when you call

I don’t want to be your general or your mother

I don’t want to be nothing at all

I just want to be

There

When you lonely at night and you cant sleep

There

When your having feeling real deep

There

When you world crumbles and you need to pick it up

There

When you run out of luck

There

When your girl ain't true

There

For whatever you want to do

I don’t want the title

Cause I don’t belong to you

I don’t want to waste your time

Cause I got shit to do

Don’t think I paying games

Cause what I say is true

I just want to be the one you call

Whatever your going through

Life

I walk lonely

In the world of the phony

These people know me

cause I’m righteous

I’m above this

I’m above the pettiness, the selfishness, the spitefulness

I’m above the sky, above the universe

I’m GOD

I paint the sky with gold

I watch the world unfold

I watch the sunrise and I’m mesmerized so I emphasize

The beauty in nature

And the beauty in life

So I’m gonna live life

and love life

and be beautiful

in nature

The eye of the soul

Is imagination the eye of soul

Like a sparkling diamond from a lump of coal

Like digging and digging and getting stuck in you hole

Is love the eye of the soul

Like running and running when there is no end

Like someone breaking your heart and then it won’t mend

Like my poem might have a message to send

Like finding the eye of your soul is the end

What I See

There has to be more to him

than what I see in his eyes

cause I see in his eyes

is sorrow and sad goodbyes

but these are lies

cause when I look in his eyes I see his heart

and a man’s heart never tells lies

I know these are lies

cause on his face I see love

and love lifts you up

it doesn’t bring you down

it gives you wings so you can fly

in that wide open sky

above

so where is the sorrow in love

Is it love lost?

Oh! I see the lie

cause love lost is nothing but a sad goodbye

Changing Garden

still waters run deep in the garden that was once a child

 in the water an illuminating reflection

twisted and turned from meek and mild

in the garden that was once filled seeds

now reflects blossoming flowers

while other garden dark and dormant

while away the hours

in the spring gardens blossom

in the winter gardens fall

but the garden that was once a child

is the most beautiful garden of all

Pain

Why is it that I always feel no one cares
When I’m all alone and no ones there
My hear yearns for attention and I’m hurting inside
When I’m consumed with stress there’s no one by my side
I’m forever scolded by cruelty’s mark
I’m sick to my stomach cause I buried my heart in the dark

In a world

When I’m stuck
I’m in a world of my own
I’m outside of space and my time zone
Flying on the back of the world
Sleeping on clouds
Listening to a whispering sound
When I’m stuck
I’m in a world of my own
Trapped in an emotional monster cyclone
The sun is shining
The wind has blown
The sky in raining things unknown

That Time

Sit back and let me kick you

the business

the emotional

the truthful

the serioius

the haters

the drama

the constant trauma

The life I live

the pain I feel

its not a dream

I know its real

I cant explain

I don't understand

what's in my head

what's my plan

what do I think

whats on my mind

you know what I think

it's about that time

Wondering

Pounding on the window
is the sound of the rain
relaxed and in a trance
is what I contain

By the window I sit and admire
the way the waters
descend and expire

The sky dark and dim with a dismal tone
In a world of liars and cheats
I am all alone

Calling out in a silent cry

Why do good people have to die?